I surrender all to you
Everything I give to you
What heart wrenching words those truly are to me. And a magnitude of truth that lies behind them. Those words take me down memory lane.
Back in the month of January. I was in the process of buying a new car when God began to deal with me about missions, again. I was nervous about having a new bill, and was praying about taking on a new job. It seemed my life was much to busy and distracted to be concerned with missions. A group from a neighboring church was going to Belize. I had felt the Lord tug on me to go. But I didn’t feel it was the right time. With all that was happening in my life.
As I laid in my bed one night. Saying my nightly prayers before falling into a trance. God began to convict me. Making it difficult to rest peaceful. He continually spoke these words in my heart, ” I’m blessing you, but don’t you neglect what I’ve told you to do.” As I would wake that morning. Drinking a fresh brewed cup of coffee before work. I would hear God’s voice whisper again, ” Go to Belize,” ” Go to Belize.” I tried every excuse in the book, but God wasn’t having it. Doubting I could make it happen. I set out on a quest that morning to take time off from my job, and purchase a plane ticket. All to be prepared to depart in a week.
Within one day. My boss let me off, and my plane ticket was sponsored by a very special person. So I set out on a new adventure! I can’t begin to describe in words what supernatural things took place in only seven days. But I know assuredly. I’ve yet to see the fulfillment of it all. I’ll never forget the people of Belize. Their true pure worship, prayer, faithfulness, and dedication. They inspired me to go beyond the normal. To give everything I had to God.
After arriving back to the states. God was still dealing with my heart. Even more so now. He begin to whisper again telling me, ” I’m not finished with you yet.” It was in that moment I would have an Abraham experience.
“And it came to pass after these things, that God did tempt Abraham, and said unto him, Abraham: and he said, Behold, here I am. And he said, Take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.” (Genesis 22:1-2 KJV)
Something I learned. This is the very first worship service. There’s an altar, and a perfect sacrifice. God knew how much Abraham loved his son. But God was concerned about how much Abraham loved Him.
Abraham didn’t try to manipulate God’s Word to fit his life. He just rose up in the morning, and prepared to go worship. When God saw that Abraham was willing to sacrifice his will. God then allowed Abraham to keep his promise son, and provided another acceptable sacrifice in it’s place. Abraham would travel up the mountain to sacrifice, but He came down the mountain with a greater promise than before.
“And said, By myself have I sworn, saith the Lord, for because thou hast done this thing, and hast not withheld thy son, thine only son: That in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the sea shore; and thy seed shall possess the gate of his enemies;” (Genesis 22:16-17 KJV)
So mine wasn’t that extreme, but it felt like it to me. As God was molding and shaping my heart to fit his plan. I would experience much heart ache. Slowly God revealed to me things I was placing before him. I didn’t want to give him control. I didn’t know how to trust and just wait upon the Lord. I had prayed and prayed for things that wasn’t being answered. So I was trying to manipulate and cut corners where I could make things happen.
The eyes of my heart began to see that God wanted to use me. If only I would give him everything. Everything I loved, dreamed, and hoped for. Every painful memory of my past, and the things I couldn’t understand. One late night at an altar with just the Lord and I. I would begin to lay and sacrifice things on the altar. Things I didn’t want to relinquish, but I knew I had to for Him. It didn’t feel good. I walked away sorrowful. But at the end of the day I knew I had held nothing back from Him. Above all, He had to become number one in my life.
I believe this is one of the biggest obstacles for believers. Coming to church and praising Him is easy. But when God begins to ask us to sacrifice things, we don’t want any part of it. No one wants to have an Abraham experience. We don’t want to put the time and effort into praying or fasting. But yet we want to see revival. We want a greater anointing, but we don’t want to go through dark valleys to obtain it. According to the scripture above. You can’t have a real worship service without sacrifice, and surrendering of our will.
So I want to encourage my readers today. Stop holding back from God. Stop pretending and hiding behind a theatrical praise. God sees your heart and knows exactly what you have a death grip on. Those things that hinder you from being what He called you to be. Those addictions, vanity, pride, control, acceptance, popularity, a love for money, and unforgiveness.
“And king David said to Ornan, Nay; but I will verily buy it for the full price: for I will not take that which is thine for the Lord, nor offer burnt offerings without cost.
We need a spirit like David. That says I’m not going to offer nothing half heartedly. David said if I’m going to sacrifice, I will withhold nothing! Love you all! God bless!