“And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.”
1 John 5:15 KJV
Many times in my walk with God I’ve wondered if God really sees and is He really listening when I pray. I know his word says He hears the cries of his people, but in the day to day prayer meetings sometimes it would feel like I was talking to the wall. At times I’d almost feel like I was wasting my time, and get kinda irritated.
Everyone has their preferences when it comes to praying. For me, I like to start my day off with talking to God before I do anything else, and trust me I can tell a huge difference when I don’t. I stumble sleepy eyed into the kitchen to hit the button on my coffee pot because let’s be honest coffee and prayer go together like root beer in ice cream. I could start my day of with a generic prayer like, ” Lord thank you for this day,” don’t get me wrong sometimes I do that, and there’s nothing wrong it. However, I’d rather start my day off with, ” Jesus I love you,” just to let him know He is the very first thing on my mind, the love of my life, and the only light of my world. There’s been a many of morning sitting in my chair sipping on coffee that I’d slowly lay my head back with tears flowing down my face. Just feeling the inevitable presence of the Holy Ghost graciously sweep it to the still room, and only being able to say, “Jesus I just love you today.”
When I start thinking or talking about prayer I think of a story I heard a Pastor tell once about how a lady learned to pray. He said there was a lady who’s kids was grown, her husband worked, and she didn’t have any neighbors for several miles. She sat at home everyday alone, and like most people would she’d grow very very lonely. One day she began to pray, and she said, ” Lord, please send me a friend. I’m so very lonely.” It wasn’t long she heard her front door open, foot steps grew near to her when all of a sudden the chair beside her pulls out. She sees nothing with her physical eye, but she hears a voice loud and clear say, ” I get lonely to talk to people too sometimes.” From that day on the lady and Jesus would sit everyday at the same time and just talk.
That story was so beautiful to me, and helped me to see Jesus and time spent with him in a much brighter light. All the feelings I feel like loneliness, He feels them also at times. I’m sure it frustrates the Lord that I question him on is he really listening when he is sitting sit there looking at me. For example, one day a few weeks ago I was driving in my car. I was so frustrated with some situations in my life that I began to pray with anger in my heart and spirit. Out of frustration I yelled and said, ” God! Do you even know where I am at this point?” Thinking nothing else about it I went on with my life when about a week later I’m in a prayer meeting, and the Lord speaks saying, ” Don’t think I don’t know where you are! I brought you here, and I will sustain you!” That hasn’t been the first time God has proven to me He was listening in on my prayer “rants” as I call it. He has eyes that see and ears that hear, and I lose sight of that more times than I ought.
I’ve started to pray differently now knowing that God really is listening, and I better be very careful with what I say, or I’ll get chastened again. (Haha) The Lord has shown me that when I enter into my closet to speak to him He has been anticipating on it all day. He delights in our talks, and wether I cry tears of joy or sadness in the middle he is okay with it. He just wants to have fellowship, and feel that He is unconditional loved.
Now when I go into prayer it’s not out of obligation it’s out of excitement to talk to my best friend. I never know what he might say, and I get so nervous what might happen during our conversation. I have to admit it might sound a little silly, but in a few desperate times I’ve pulled a chair up, and would say, ” Jesus, please come sit down so I can talk to you about this,” haha. He was probably thinking oh brother not this again, but he comes anyway.
If you’re reading this you’re probably wondering what’s the point of this blog. The point I’m trying to make is that God is listening. He sees when you’re at home crying where nobody else can see. He is listening when we are frustrated by life’s stumbling blocks. He knows when you’re struggling in your faith, and a little lost in your way. He is listening every time we’ve made that same request for the hundredth time. Just because it may feel like He isn’t there doesn’t mean He isn’t there. Just because that prayer hasn’t been answered yet doesn’t mean He turned the mute button on. Pray a prayer He can answer! If you’re praying for a better job, and he hasn’t brought you one try thanking him for the job you have, and ask him to help you love it until it’s time to move- for example. I just want to maybe help someone else who’s been frustrated like me. I had to change my view point on what prayer is, and my fellowship with the Lord. In doing so, He has spoken to me so much clearer, and He has even answered some of my most prayed prayers when I changed how I prayed about them.
Try entering into a quite place today talk to Jesus. knowing with assurance He is listening, and wants to meet your needs more than what you might think. He’s just waiting on us.
“Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you.”
Jeremiah 29:12 ESV